Case of the Mondays

I've been trying for hours to come up with something useful or important or even interesting for you to read. I've had fleeting thoughts of posts about Lizzy to posts about how I finally started watching Downton Abbey last night.

The thing is, I'm exhausted. Life has caught up with me and I'm tired. I've got some weird form of insomnia that makes me unable to get to sleep before midnight, sometimes later, even though I have to wake up early in the morning. And I can't seem to focus on things, which makes teaching interesting.

I don't know what exactly happened that hit me like this. Things are going well, for the most part, so it's not like I've had some big crisis or traumatic event. Sometimes I think maybe it's because I haven't gotten a break or a vacation in over a year. But then I think, "I know LOTS of people who haven't had a break or a vacation in over a year and they don't seem to be quickly wearing down." So maybe it's not that, or maybe it is and I just really need some quality beach time.

Yesterday, in hopes of cheering myself up, I figured out how many days it is until exciting things. All the countdowns were really high, though, so I ended up being more sad than happy.

And while I'm not necessarily running around full of joy and good thoughts, I wouldn't say I'm sad. It's not like depression. It's just an extreme weariness. A tiredness that sleep can't help.

It's a case of the Mondays that has lasted for about a month.

Hopefully something will give. I'll finally get a good night's sleep, or maybe it'll just be unseasonably warm for the rest of the winter.